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Kent Ridge People
Chairwoman: Mrs Faith Seah
NUH HR executive
Financial Analyst: tan rou'en
NUS 3rd year EL major
Operations Specialist: ivan koh
NSF
Professional Birthday Planners: ben por
econs graduate
& christy!!
2nd year Archi undergrad
web specialists: sharon lim
4th year Theatre Studies major
& eunice tan
St Luke's Hospital HR executive & uniSIM student
Welfare Specialists: dawn neo shihui
3rd year psych major
lee mei zhen
3rd year social work major
& patrick lin han sheng
3rd year econs major
Image Consultant: hong enlin
3rd year political science major
Resident Worship Director: derrick zhuang
HY graduate
Resident Artists: carrick ang
3rd year Soci major
IT Specialist: Sindu
the fabulous chef Phebe
life science graduate
our yummy queen/ food hunter Kimberly
4th year soci major on exchange from Canada!
our dear KR idol Carynl!
3rd year psych major
& our big friendly giant Chong Ken!!!
NUS History Graduand
& our freshie Kai Xin!
NUS Arts year 1
& Jasmine~!
NUS Real Estate
& our spikey haired Wei Jin!!
NUS computational finance 4th yr student
our Masters scholar Joshua~!
All under the guidance & care of our Resident Advisors Wei Guang & Rui Lin (plus little Ashlyn...)
official ice-cream being Ben & Jerry's
and our zone pastor- Pastor Edwin!
anddddd our cell pet Eli~!
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Hello cell,
it's been a long time since i shared something personal with the cell, and i feel that this time i really really should:
During service last night, I was reminded of how selfish i have become. so totally consumed by my workload, by what i have to do, that i've lost sight of everything else. i've become tired of being nice, become weary of listening to others and helping them, become tired of church-going, tired of serving, tired of obeying God. And i've started to see everything as a rule, a 'condition' (or rather, 'conditions') i must fulfill so that God will love me and bless me.
But it really isn't so. God loves me because He knows and He sees the potential in me, my potential in becoming. Instead of condemnation (for all the things i've done wrong and all the things that i'm still doing wrong), it's acceptance. And those 'rules' are not conditions that i have to fulfill to get Him to love me, but the act of obedience comes naturally, out of love itself. Just like how you obey your parents because you love them, not because you need to earn their love. Took me this long to realise that.
I really want to have a passionate heart again. When my love for God died down and when i got confused and doubtful regarding Him, everything else started to crumble as well. Especially my relationships with others... it's all on the rocks, some have already suffered major blows and now it's all these estranged relationships that i don't know how to and when to recover.
And i've been so myopic. i didnt cry just because i was stressed out to the max. Rather, i was so ashamed of myself. and that's why. Missions convention? What went through my mind initially was 'oh, the church wants to collect money again'. i've been so self-centred, all i could see was how i'm gonna pay my debt upon graduation, how i'm gonna finish my essays and films in time, how i'm gonna find time to watch movies and plays, how i'm gonna find the money to watch plays, how i'm gonna celebrate my 21st birthday...
But really, there's so much more if i can look beyond my own circumstances, cause in Him there's really way more than just going about my daily mundane routines. I'm not saying that He's not interested in what i have to do--He will offer comfort, He will guide me, He will bless me in my studies, but there's something greater than all of these, something inherently more important that we're all being moulded for. I want to rescue those girls too. And who knows, God might just be able to use us, to help them...
I pray for each and everyone of you reading this, that God Himself will carry you through your tough times. that He will stretch His hands towards you, and hold you, guide you, comfort you, strengthen you. And sometimes we don't even know it's Him, or that He's there.
But He's always been there.
He's always been faithful.
--shar
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